No.  Not Krusty Krab.  Crispy Crab.  For those of you who are not in the know, this is something that you all must experience.

This morning, I woke up at 8:30 and had my breakfast.  A little after 9:00, I wet my hair down, combed it and put yesterday’s clothes on.  A shower could wait, as I didn’t want to miss my opportunity to get my hands on a coconut shrimp taco.

I arrived at the Farmer’s Market in downtown Midland with my brother, and there was no place to park.  The whole area was set up.  There were flowers for sale, with a handful of different vendors selling their food: frozen apple cider slushies, crepes, popcorn and of course, the delicious awesomeness that is the Crispy Crab.

When I finally saw a spot, it was a showdown.  Another car saw the spot that I wanted to get.  Fortunately, I was there first, so I parked and got out.

Being there a little early, I read a little bit of “The First Phone Call From Heaven”. That is a pretty good book so far, and I am almost 100 pages into it.

After finishing my chapter and waiting a while, my mom and my sister joined me.  There wasn’t really a line, so I was quite fortunate.

My mom ordered and they got some frozen apple cider slushies while we were waiting.  I shared one with my brother, and it was pretty good.

Finally, the food came.  Me and my brother got our styrofoam take-out boxes and went back to the car.

We ate our food in the car.  How were the tacos?  They were amazing.  It’s a soft shell tortilla with deep fried shrimp, purple cabbage and a special coconut sauce.  In a $9 order, you get two of them, with a bag of Lays Original Potato chips and a side of their cole slaw.  It’s really good slaw, too.  It has a little bit of ramen noodle mixed in.

Again, my plug to the place.  Try the Crispy Crab!  Where are they located?  Get on facebook and find out!  They change their location weekly and they usually are open four days a week.  But resources are limited, so it’s first come, first serve.  They’re open until they sell out, which is usually a couple hours.  So get it while it’s hot!  I will try the Crabcake Sandwich the next time I go there.

After the delicious snack, I took off for the mall to get a Father’s Day card for dad.  Happy with my selection, I went to Meijer to get my Eggbeaters.  I then went home to help my dad and grandpa turn the hunting blind over.  In case I haven’t mentioned it, they are working on a hunting blind for the fall.  Both me and my brother helped them and I was able to get that done.

What’s on tap for later?  Another four hour shift at the pizza pit, of course.  Really, at this point, it is not so much the work that annoys me, but the music.  Just how long do I have to hear crap music?  Hip hop artists and their stupid beats and other songs by filthy whores.  Enbrazened prostitutes singing about sex and whatever.  If this happens today, I will just focus on the work at hand, like I always do.  After all, that’s what I’m paid to do.  Make pizzas.  Not put up with other people’s music.  Let’s get away from that, as I don’t want this to turn into a rant…

 

Ghost Muse:  Good.  Please stay away from that.

So, how about that Crispy Crab, huh?

Ghost Muse:  It’s so good.  I just finished my third order.  I’m going to need to work out tomorrow.

*glances at watch*  I think I need to wrap this up.

Ghost Muse:  Okay.  Have fun at work!

Also, my friend’s over.  So I need to end this.

Ghost Muse: Time to read my novel!

 

Today’s high is going to be 80 degrees and the silver lining is having some delicious Crispy Crab this morning.

To those of you who have ever tried the awesome Crispy Crab, I hope that you all have a fantastic day.

 

Muse:  *sigh*  I’m so lonely.  I wish that I could talk to Kyle…

*Muse embraces stuffed bunny*

Yup.  The lawn is overdue for its weekly haircut.  Only this time, it should be a little easier.  Since some ant killer has been put on the grass, it doesn’t need to be bagged.  In hearing that, it’s music to my ears.  I will be taking the bagging attachment off and putting the mulching block in.  This should make the lawn take a little shorter.

As for yesterday’s phone call, there might be a writing opportunity that I will be able to be a part of.  For the brochure critique, however, this won’t happen until July since that organization that I talked to is in the process of updating their outdated template.  Once they have this updated, I can begin the training process, which will likely be in July.  In the meantime, I will keep looking.  I also applied for another job through Kelly Services.

In the writing realm, The Tale of Zachary Willowbrook: The School Years is coming along nice.  I am at the part of the story where it finally gets exciting.  Zachary actually goes to school.  So while school is out for the summer, classes are in session for Zachary.  I will make another website update in the future, so look for that.

I have also read some more of Mitch Albom’s “The First Phone Call From Heaven”.  It’s a great story so far, and I look forward to reading more.

 

Ghost Muse:  Another green haircut entry?

Yes.  It seems to be a reoccurring thing in the Spring/Summer/Early Fall season.

Ghost Muse:  Enjoy that.  I’m going to get some cleaning done.

Wait.  Where are you living?

Ghost Muse:  I have another place.  Architecturally, it’s pretty much the same house that the shy Muse is living in, minus the stuffed animals and vibrant colors.

Okay.  I need to get mowing the lawn.

Ghost Muse: I need to get cleaning.  See you later.

 

That’s pretty much today in a nutshell.  Mow the lawn, look for work, continue on story, and work my shift.  It’s a good thing that today is Friday…

Today’s high is going to be 81 degrees and the silver lining is getting the lawn cut.

To those of you who love mowing the lawn on Fridays, I hope that you all have a fantastic day.

 

Muse:  I would love to see Kyle again…forget it…I’m too shy.  I can’t talk to him!  I guess I’ll talk to my stuffed bunny, since he’s my only friend…

Wow!  The sun is out and I feel great today.

And like always, the search continues.  The search for a job that matches my job.  With a degree in Journalism, you would think that it would be easy, right?  To be totally honest, it has not been easy, and I’m glad it hasn’t.

Why?  Because I would probably be miserable, working at some job I don’t like.  In being patient, I am able to find just the right job for me.  Yes, there are a lot of fish in the water, but don’t catch the first one!

As I said already, I am right where God wants me to be.  He knows what job is best for me, and he is prepared to give it to me.  But I still need to seek it out myself.  They say that things happen for a reason.  I believe that the reason is all the more closer than it was before. The job will appear when the day is ripe for it.  And when that day happens, I will be ready to graciously receive it.

Today, I have a phone call at 1:00 p.m.  I will be speaking with the Vice President of an organization that works with continuing education and lifelong learning.  After today’s conversation, I am hoping that there will be some kind of opportunity that will appear.  It might not be the ideal job, but will serve as a road to it.

 

Engage entertaining segment with a continuing story arc.

Well, I finally made it.  I reached the castle and I just got inside.  The Dark Muse should be in one of these chambers…

*searches every chamber until I reach the large upper chamber*

Ah!  There she is.  I’m guessing the castle is mostly empty because the crowds of Muses must’ve warned the others…

Dark Muse:  Or maybe it’s because I want to be alone.  Tee hee!

Quick!  We must escape!  We don’t have much time…

Dark Muse:  I…can’t escape.  I’m too afraid!  Tee hee…

Then you can escape with me.  Here.  Let me pick you up…

Dark Muse:  No!  Get away from me!  Tee hee…

*Dark Muse becomes invisible*

Please.  Don’t do this!  I need you to get out of here.  It’s not safe!

Dark Muse: I’m staying.  I can’t leave this place.  You can’t make me!  Tee hee…

You want to leave, but you don’t have any confidence left.  If you don’t hurry, I will lose all of my confidence.  This barrier doesn’t have much time left…

Dark Muse:  Just go away!  I’m afraid!  Tee hee…

Here.  Have some unshakable confidence.  I have enough of it to give to another person, and still have enough for myself.

Dark Muse:  Ah!  What is this?  Oh…I need to get out of here fast!  Tee hee!

Oh no!  The barrier is breaking…Losing…confidence…

*Dark Muse glances at me*

Dark Muse:  No!  You came all the way in here to rescue me.  I will not let you stay in this horrible place!  Here.  Grab on to my hand.  Tee hee…

*barely reaches for Dark Muse’s hand teleports out of Muse*

Dark Muse:  Here.  We need to get away from her.  Hang on tight.  Tee hee…

*blacks out and awakens*

Dark Muse:  Wake up.  Please wake up!  Tee hee…

Where am I? I failed, didn’t I?

Dark Muse:  You saved my life.  Tee hee!

*Dark Muse hugs me*

Why are you hugging me?  Get away!

Dark Muse:  He needs more confidence!  Tee hee!

Remedy:  Hold on.  I have just the thing.  Kyle.  Drink this.  It will restore all of your confidence.

No.  That drink looks repulsive.  And it won’t work either!  It’s useless to try!

Dark Muse:  Here comes the plane!  Down the hatches! Tee hee!

*Dark Muse shoves the vial down my throat*

Hey!  What did you…*cough* *cough* *hack*  Whoa.  My confidence…I feel confident again!

Dark Muse:  Thanks for saving me.  Tee hee!  It was horrible inside that Muse!  I couldn’t escape!  I was too afraid.  Tee hee…

Ghost Muse:  I’m glad that Kyle was able to help you.  Although I have despised you in the past, I’m really glad that you’re out.

Dark Muse:  And I saved Kyle too!  See?  I’m not so bad!  Tee hee…

Remedy:  That was a close call.  Kyle gave you that unbreakable confidence just in time…

Dark Muse:  Well, I’m gonna stay away from that Muse.  At least until she becomes something different.  See you in a couple months!  Tee hee!

*Dark Muse disappears in a cloud of smoke*

Thanks again, Remedy for that barrier.

Remedy:  You’re welcome.  I was afraid that I didn’t make it last long enough.  But it was just right.

Now that should make the Muse less of a threat, right?

Remedy: It should.  I’ll let you get ready for that phone call.

Ghost Muse: I’m leaving, too.  Good luck, Kyle!

 

There.  The Dark Muse is finally free.  Now I just have a regular shy Muse to deal with…

Today’s high is going to be 74 degrees and the silver lining is having the phone call.

To those of you who are patiently waiting and searching for work, I hope that you all have a fantastic day.

 

Muse:  I lost my new friend! *sob* Why?  I know why!  She doesn’t like me!  She’s afraid of me because I’m too shy!  Everyone is!  Nobody likes me!  NOBODY!

*Muse’s house shakes and the void inside her begins to double in size*

I feel unusually tired right now.  I ate a sub, and I’m now reflecting on how this day defied my expectations.

At work, I couldn’t listen to my music and shake my sign, due to an influx of business during lunch.  After helping for most of the shift, I could shake the sign for the remainder of the time.

After work, I discovered that it was a change of plans.  It looks like my friend won’t be coming over after all.  This is strangely convenient, as I feel really tired right now.  I felt tired earlier, so I lied down for a while.

 

I still feel tired.  I wonder if it has to do with the place I’m at.  I just about see something in the distance.  By dark, I should be able to reach the castle where the Dark Muse is kept.

Today’s high is going to be 70 degrees and the silver lining is having the remainder of this day to relax.  I will definitely want to go to bed to get my strength back for tomorrow.

To those of you who had a day that was anything but typical, I hope that you all have a fantastic day.

 

Muse:  We’re so tired.  Time to sleep…Tee…hee…

I looked at my calendar today.  There are two deadlines that are approaching.  One in three weeks and one that will happen next week.

For the one happening next week, I have a stump speech to prepare for.  I am running for president of Midland Toastmasters and to ensure the election, I need to make sure this speech is well practiced.

The next deadline is in three weeks, and it pertains to my second Icebreaker that I’ll be presenting to the club.  I have a good idea on what I want it to look like.  I just need to start practicing it.

With today off, the search continues.  I will search, I will hope and I will pray.  No matter how many times I do this, I understand that this is all in God’s hands and he has me right where he wants me.

 

This is different.  I am now on a hill.  A hill leading down into a vast field.  And the field is…I see them!  It is full of Muses!  Hundreds of them.  All of them dancing in a vast field of fabric.

Muses:  Tee hee…tee hee…tee hee…tee hee…tee hee…tee hee…tee hee…tee hee…

I hate to break their sing-song chant, but I need to get through this field to rescue the Dark Muse.

*walks down hill and into field, triggering a series of gasps and screams*

Muses: Ahhhh!!!!

*large crowds of Muses begin crying and begin hiding in bushes of fabric*

Whoa…With this many Muses, I’m really starting to feel the tug on my confidence…It’s a good thing i have that barrier.  I would’ve lost it a long time ago…

Muses:  Eeek!!!!

*more crowds of Muses become invisible and start running*

This field of fear is starting to get annoying.  Cries, screams, gasps, whimpering…It’s all too much…

*the screaming, crying and whimpering gets louder and louder*

ENOUGH ALREADY!  One of you is more than enough.  A whole field of you is more than I can bear.  SILENCE!  ALL OF YOU!

And they’re…Good.  They’re all quiet.  It must be the director’s privileges…

It looks like I’m exiting this field.  I’ll definitely use that again if I encounter another field of those shy terrors.  I still have quite a ways to go, so I better keep walking.

Today’s high is going to be 79 degrees and the silver lining is having the day off to get some work done.

To those of you who like productive days off, I hope that you all have a fantastic day.

 

Muse:  We love flying around the house all teeny and tiny!  Let’s fly around the house again!  Tee hee…

With this being another holiday, I’m going to keep this one a little short.

On this day where we honor fallen veterans, I want to show respect for that.  Chances are you know someone who is serving in the military.  You may even know someone who has died on the battlefield.  For this, I want to show respect for every family who has a fallen vet.

Also, like I said yesterday, this vast field of fabric goes on for miles and miles.  I have been walking for what feels like forever.  If I were in the real world, my legs would have already fallen off.  I’ll let you know when I get close to the stronghold where the Dark Muse is being kept.

Today’s high is going to be 83 degrees and the silver lining is being able to remember those who have given their lives in battle.

To those of you who know someone who is a vet, alive or dead, I hope that you all have a fantastic day.

 

Muse:  We want to fly, just like the pretty ponies!  Tee hee!  Whee! Our wish was granted!  This is so much fun!  Tee hee…

It’s time that I use this blog for one of my primary purposes that I have already stated – journaling.

Where has my obedience taken me lately?  This is what I have noticed.  In the recent days and weeks, I have noticed that I have not been making much progress.  I have been working my scheduled shifts weekly.  I have been looking for work.  I have been writing these daily blogs.  I have attended church just about every week (today is the exception).  I have given my tiny amount in offerings and have set aside a day of fasting for the past couple months.  What results have I seen in doing this?  I actually haven’t seen much, to be honest.

Being aware of this,  I begin asking God if there is anything that I have done that is against him.  For me and everyone else, this includes all of the things that we do that we think that we can get away with.  Whether in public or in secret, God is watching, all the time.  And for secrets, don’t tell me that you don’t have secrets.  Everyone has them, especially those who are married.  What we do most of the time is hide them.  Sweep them under the rug so that they don’t get noticed.  Why?  Because they would be shameful to those who find out!  Pornography, alcoholism, drug addiction, any other addiction…would you really want other people to know what you are doing in your private life?

But God knows what everyone does in secret, good or bad.  And for the bad things, it is a harmful thing to hide them from those that we love.  And that is the true test of love.  Would they still love you if they knew?

As for the public format of this blog, there are things that I do not feel comfortable sharing here.  Just think about it.  Would you really want to share with me everything that goes on in your private life?  That is my point exactly.  These are things that should not be shared with anyone else, except for those who are the closest to you.

Sometimes, these things that we carry in our lives, these weaknesses and burdens that we can’t remove are the very things that God uses to remind us of His strength.

Getting back to what I asked God about.  Have I done anything against him?  Anything apart from the weaknesses that I already have?  I believe the weaknesses have different parts to play in the building of my strength.  When I encounter the obstacles, the very things that make me weak, God is there, reminding me how strong I am because of Him.  This rules out the weaknesses in my life.  This is especially so since those whom I love are aware of what my weaknesses are, and do whatever they can to support me, in spite of them.

If the weaknesses aren’t responsible for the lack of action in my vocational life, what is left?  Is there anything left at all?  There is.  I believe that the missing ingredient here is patience.  Perhaps patience is the very thing that God is trying to teach me during the dry season of working week in and week out.  He is determined to instill this into me.  And he will.  No matter how many times it takes, he is determined to finish what he has began inside of me.

And as I work my shift today, I will try to keep this in mind.  As I have decided before, the reign of happiness is going to continue.  Depression, frustration and anger will be put to rest.  Happiness can be found anywhere.  Even during the darkest days and the saddest times.  Even when the skies are dark and it is raining.  For those who can’t find happiness, they are either not looking or they’re not looking hard enough.  Happiness can be found anywhere – not just in people.

With this in perspective, all the other pieces start to fall into place.  The realization of things that have always been there but haven’t been noticed.  These would be the blessings in my life.  These are so easy to overlook when the worries of this world overtake us.  So don’t let them.  God has me right where he wants me, and he is determined to bring me to the destination where he wants me to go, one day at a time.

 

Wow.  How long have I been walking?  That discussion surely killed some time, but I feel that I am still far away from where the Dark Muse is kept.

*looks around*

Oh.  Those who are reading this can ‘t see the scenery that I can.  It is a surreal landscape.  There are a bunch of bright colors and stuffed rabbits everywhere.  Think of it as the road to Oz, only with more pinks, purples and stuffed animals.  A world that is fully safe and secure.  A world that would do her no harm.  A world with no friends due to her high level of shyness…

Muse Clone:  *gasps*

*Muse Clone runs and hides in a nearby velvet bush*

One other thing.  This world is full of fabric.  Everything is soft and smooth.  A world perfect for a shy little Muse.  Speaking of which, every one of her clones has fled from me.  So getting her should be easy…

*stares up at the sky to see a black hole*

Whoa!  That must be that confidence void.  The very reason why she can never gain any confidence…It’s a good thing that I have that barrier…

Well, there’s nothing else to see here.  Just endless miles of the same scenery.  And yes.  This is right inside her.  No organs.  No bones.  Just a world inside her body…

 

Today’s high is going to be 82 degrees and the silver lining is having a nice day to enjoy.

To those of you who are enjoying the sun, I hope that you all have a fantastic day.

 

Muse:  Fuzzy rabbit is our bestest friend!  We need no other friends because they too scary.  You’re right!  Tee hee!  We totally agree with you.  You are our bestest friend, too!  Tee hee…

There is a marathon taking place today.  This marathon consists of two different lawns: my grandparents and the lawn at home.

In about 45 minutes, I will set out with my brother to tackle the first leg of the marathon: my grandparent’s lawn.  This is the shortest leg and will take about an hour to cut between the two of us.

After this leg, the relay continues at home.  My brother will be cutting the first half of the lawn and I’ll be cutting the (longer) second half.

Overall, that’s the gist of what’s going on for today.  After that, I’ll be working for three hours at the pizza pit.

 

Remedy:  The barrier is finished.  Quick!  Enter the Muse while you have the chance…

Ghost Muse:  I can’t go with you.  I will lose my confidence.  The barrier only has enough power to cover one person.

Thanks.  Time to rescue the Muse…

*teleports to Realm of Imagination, enters Muse’s bedroom and enters Muse, who is still asleep*

 

This is it.  There is no turning back.

*activates barrier*

Today’s high is going to be 77 degrees and the silver lining is getting two lawns cut.

To those of you who love getting the lawn cut,  I hope that you all have a fantastic day.

 

Muse:  Kyle!  Inside us?  Oh no…Don’t worry.  Bad dream…Tee hee…

In having the new furry companion around, having a lap cat can be a good thing.

However, it can also go the other way, especially when I’m busy.  I’m in the middle of working on something and the fur ball just jumps onto my lap.  I don’t mind it doing this every once in a while, but how much affection is enough?  This cat wants it all the time and will not take no for an answer.

So yes, I really do like the new cat.  What I don’t like is its constant demand for attention.  I can only give so much to it before I have to go and do something else.  Can you go and make friends with the other cats in the house?  Wait. You would just terrorize them and try to fight.   Never mind.

*sigh*  Okay.  You can sit on my lap…When are you going to get off?  I…I really need to be doing something else…That’s it.  You’re getting off, whether you like it or not.

 

Ghost Muse:  Sounds like the kitty’s pretty affectionate.

Pretty affectionate?  She’s WAY too affectionate!  It’s a good thing that she has four other people to share that with…

Ghost Muse:  Oh.  You work at 11:00?  I’ll leave you be.  Back to my book…

 

So like it or hate it, Lucy is a lap cat.  And if you visit, she will try to get on your lap.  Don’t fight it.  That never works.  Just keep petting her and listen to her purr.

Today’s high is going to be 73 degrees and the silver lining is today being Friday.

To those of you who live with a lap cat, I hope that you all have a fantastic day.

 

Muse:  That scary Kyle is not around, is he?  Don’t worry.  Tee hee!  We don’t see him.  You don’t need anyone else.  You have us.  That is all you need.  Tee hee…

As I am typing this,  I feel relaxed and at ease.  While most of you were able to enjoy your Sunday off, today is my opportunity to do that.  While you all work, I will be doing what you did on Sunday – relaxing.

Today is one of those exceptions to the rule, as I most certainly will be working tomorrow.  I will be mowing a lawn and working a three-hour shaker shift.  I will continue searching the job search engines.  All of this resumes tomorrow.

I consider this to be fair enough, as we should all appoint at least one day out of the week to relax and recharge.  For me, this will be a day of rest, a day of prayer and a day of reflection.  I look forward to what this day has to offer.

 

Dark Muse:  And how are you going to do that inside of her?  Tee hee…

Oh yeah.  I’m stuck inside my Muse.  I forgot about that.  I’ll never get out of her…Wait!  Where’s my director’s privileges?

Dark Muse:  She ate them.  Tee hee!  Now we’ll never get out.  Tee hee…

You’re right.  We’ll never get out.  We’re stuck here forever…

 

Muse:  We love Rainbow Dash!  Let’s watch some more! Tee hee…

*Muse continues watching TV and holds stuffed bunny tight in one arm, while sucking her thumb*

 

Ghost Muse:  Kyle!  Remedy is going to send you some dimensional binoculars!  Look inside them.  Okay?

All right.  I don’t know what this will accomplish…

*binoculars appear in my hand*

Ghost Muse:  Now look inside them!

Why should I?  It’s hopeless…

Ghost Muse:  That’s right!  You don’t have any confidence left inside you because she took all of it!  Here!  This should be just enough confidence to look inside the binoculars.

Okay.  Just a peek.  I see both you and Remedy in the real world.  Whoa!

*gets sucked back to the real world, along with the binoculars*

Well, I’m back in the real world.  But how do I get my confidence back?  She took it, along with my director’s privileges…wait!  What’s this?  It must’ve gotten sucked out with me!

Ghost Muse:  It’s the director’s privileges!

I know it is, because I can feel an overwhelming flow of confidence coming out of it.  There.  I have my privileges back!  My first order is to restore my unshakable confidence!

*whole body flashes brightly*

There.  I have just one question.  How did that Muse take my director’s privileges?

Remedy:  I believe that it had to do with that Dark Muse that’s inside her.  You had close contact with her, didn’t you?  With that Dark Muse, that confidence void inside her was able to crack the code, allowing her to eat your director’s privileges.  I mean, didn’t it seem strange that she could make herself invisible and get away, despite your power over her?

That did seem a little off.  I’m starting to think that shy children are more powerful than shy adults.

Remedy:  Exactly.  That’s why the shy Muse has such a strong hold on her.  The void inside her is becoming larger and more powerful as a result.

Ghost Muse:  And that’s why we must get her out.

But how?  Couldn’t you have got her out the same way you did with me?

Remedy:  It’s not that easy.  That Dark Muse that you interacted with is only a clone.  Pretty much like the top of the plant.  But the “roots” are just beneath her and run deep inside her.

That area inside her was pretty dark.

Remedy:  That’s a holding area for the void’s victims.  As you already know, the inside of a Muse is not made up of internal organs, but an entire world…

Bigger on the inside than the outside…

Remedy:  Much bigger on the inside, indeed.

So how do we get to the core?  I’m guessing that she’s in some stronghold, being held captive.  Pretty much like my original Muse from before…

Remedy:  She is, and she could escape it too, if she had the confidence.

And that is why we need the unshakable confidence, right?

Remedy:  Correct.  But we’ll need something more.  She took your director’s privileges and your unshakable confidence, right?  I will need to construct a barrier.  But even with this barrier, you will have to hurry, for she will eventually become powerful enough to break it.

And she is unaware of the damage she’s causing?

Remedy:  Absolutely.  The void hungers for confidence, but never gives any to her.  It just keeps her as a prisoner in her own body.

That means two prisoners, since we can only get one out.  To free the other prisoner, we would have to get rid of the confidence void…

Ghost Muse:  Yes.  Remedy has been working on the barrier.  We need to get her out.  The poor Dark Muse doesn’t know how powerful she is making her…

And the Muse doesn’t know how powerful she has because of the void.  To her, she’s just a social outcast and hopeless…If we don’t hurry, the void will use her to feed on the confidence of the world.  And then, she will continue her feeding frenzy until there’s no confidence left…

Remedy:  The barrier should be ready in about two to three days.  I will call you when I’m finished.

Ghost Muse:  Okay.  Kyle, let’s do something else while he’s working on it, okay?

Okay.  I actually have the day off so I’m going to take it easy.

Ghost Muse:  I will do some reading.  I’ll talk to you later!

 

I’m glad that I’m finally out of that Muse.  Not having any confidence is the worst thing ever.  With the rest of the day ahead of me, I’m going to enjoy it.  Will there be more progress on my story?  There’s a good chance of that happening.

Today’s high is going to be 66 degrees and the silver lining is having the day off to relax.

To those of you who like having days off, I hope that you all have a fantastic day.

 

Muse:  We’re starting to get really tired!  Tee hee!  Let’s take a nap.  We like naps!  Tee hee…

*sigh*

I hate to make another one of these, but I can’t make this entry too long tonight.

With Survivor on in an hour, I need to get this one posted quickly.

I promise longer entries in the future.  Don’t worry!

Today’s high is going to be 78 degrees and the silver lining is the Survivor finale that will be on in an hour.

To those of you who love Survivor, I hope that you all have a fantastic day.

 

Muse:  Time for more cartoons!  Tee hee!

 

Remember the cat that I talked about in entry 302? Well, today’s the day.  After setting up the appointment with the vet, Lucy’s getting fixed today.  That means no food until after her operation.

While this was carried out quite flawlessly in the household, someone didn’t get the memo and fed her.  Fortunately, it wasn’t a lot of food, so she should be fine.

This morning, I will be taking her to the vet.  Her appointment is at 9:30, so I can’t be late.

 

Ghost Muse:  Is that your kitty?

It’s my mom’s.  With the way that she showed up on our porch a few weeks ago, I would call her a miracle kitty.

Ghost Muse:  She looks pretty cute! Why don’t I ever see her?

How much time do you spend outside my head?  Maybe if you would see her if you weren’t at Remedy’s so often…

Ghost Muse:  *sigh*  I long to have my own home.  I mean, I do…yet I don’t…

Both you and the Shy Muse are connected.  I know.

Ghost Muse:  Don’t forget the Spoiled Rich Muse.  We’re all connected.  They’re all a part of me.

All except for the Dark Muse…

Ghost Muse:  Yeah.  She’s a bad idea prancing around in a clone of my younger self.

Actually, a clone of yourself, only she made herself younger.

Ghost Muse:  Same difference.  I’m guessing that’s the age that I was when I encountered that bad idea for the first time…

So the idea’s the same age as you are…

Ghost Muse:  Yes and no.  Ideas don’t age, which would explain why she would prefer to be that age.

Or it.  Ideas don’t have genders, right?

Ghost Muse:  Not until they choose one.  Being around me, it wanted to be female.  And like all ideas, it just wanted to be accepted.

But all children have bad ideas, but they don’t know any better at that age.

Ghost Muse:  Exactly.  When I was that age, those who knew better kept me away from it.  The ones who raised me did this.

Getting back to how you’re connected…can you actually feel where all your other forms are?

Ghost Muse:  It depends on how strong the connection is.  For the Spoiled Rich Muse, I can definitely sense its presence. But for the Shy Muse, it’s hard to sense since the Dark Muse is blocking my connection with it…

Do you still have those binoculars?

Ghost Muse:  Yes.  Do you want them?

I just want to see what the Shy Muse is doing right now.

Ghost Muse:  Don’t you mean the Shy Dark Muse?  You know, we should really get her out of there…I’m guessing that she wants out but there’s no way for her to escape…

From what you told me about being in there, it must not be fun.

Ghost Muse:  It isn’t.  We should get her out soon.  Who knows the damage she can do with that Dark Muse?

And the worst part about it is that she doesn’t even know that she’s causing the damage!  Let me take a look.

Ghost Muse:  Here. *hands the binoculars to me*  Give them back when you’re done.  This is my only way to see how my other form is doing…

How is she doing?

*looks inside the binoculars to see the Muse fast asleep in her bed*

She’s sleeping right now…Whoa!  What is she…?

*gets sucked inside the Realm of Imagination, inside the Muse’s bedroom*

Muse:  *snore*  Delicious…yummy…tee hee…

What’s going on?  My…my unshakable confidence!  Great!  I’m hopeless!  I might as well give up…

Muse:  *snore* Want another friend…tee hee…

AHHHHH!!!!

*gets sucked inside Muse*

Where am I?  What am I…

Muse: Doing?  Tee hee…

Muse: That dream was so yummy!  We flew, we ate and we even made a new friend!  Tee hee!  Today’s high is going to be a warm 71 degrees and the silver lining is making a new friend today!  To those of you who love making friends and flying with pretty ponies, I hope that you all have a fantastic day.  Tee hee!

 

Really, what’s going on?  Am I…trapped…inside her?  Great!  Just great!  Now I’ll never get out…

Dark Muse:  *sob* Me neither!  Tee hee…

Today marks a new chapter in the history of my Toastmasters journey.

This last Friday, it was decided that Sensational Speakers should close.  And if you read my entry from Friday, yes.  That was the day where I had lunch at a restaurant. Where I and the rest of the committee decided the fate for Sensational Speakers.

Tonight, I will be attending the very last Sensational Speakers meeting.  This will be bittersweet, as I have so many memories associated with this club.  Bitter, as the club is closing and I’ll be missing it in its passing.  Sweet, because of the warmth of the people that will be there and all the recounted memories of the past that will be discussed and shared.

Before I delve any further into the present, I would like to reflect on the past.  A past that goes back nearly five years ago…

Five years ago, it was back in July of 2009 that the seeds were planted.  I was a newly appointed Sergeant at Arms for Midland Toastmasters.  I was serving my first ever officer role.  At the time, I was working on my Competent Leadership Manual.  One of the requirements was to “Help Organize a Club Special Event”.  A open house needed to be planned for the fall, so I accepted the task.  Upon accepting it, I realized that this open house would not just consist of one club, but two.  Midland Toastmasters and Sensational Speakers.

Being the open house chair of a joint-area open house really challenged me to grow, as I now had to email several people to fill the agenda slots, including the president of Sensational Speakers.  After several emails, contacting the media and discussing the planning through a conference call, it all came together smoothly.

When the date for the open house came up (October 20, 2009), I came down with a terrible flu bug.  Regardless, I wanted to see how the open house turned out. I made the unwise decision of attending anyway, instead of staying in bed.  The open house turned out amazing.  And fortunately, I managed to sit there for most of the meeting without running to the bathroom.  (I did eventually, but I believe that this was during a break.)

One year later, it was now July 19, 2010.  I was a newly appointed Secretary for Midland Toastmasters.  To further enrich my experience in Toastmasters, I attended a Sensational Speakers meeting.  As a recording secretary, I took some unofficial notes on what went on at the meeting.  (The official notes were recorded on what went on at my home club)  The first speaker wasn’t present, but the other two were.  The third speaker, Wendy Schram, gave her speech titled “What a Week!”

At the end of that meeting, I was asked if I wanted to join.  I politely addressed everyone, telling them this is my first meeting of my three meeting trial period.  By the third meeting I would make my decision.

The date of the third meeting came:  September 20, 2010.  I made my decision.   And it was to join Sensational Speakers.  From that point on, I knew that I made a decision that I would never regret.

Over the years, I really grew in that club.  In February of 2011, I gave my first prepared speech in Sensational Speakers.  It was titled “The Coaching Smoothie”, and Helen Dotson evaluated it.

My growing continued.  It would be just a few months later that I would be asked to take on a new club officer role: Vice President Public Relations.  Helen Dotson asked me if I could do this, that night during a District Governor’s reception at Boyne Mountain resort.  I agreed.  That night, it was official.  I would be serving as Vice President Public Relations for both Midland Toastmasters and Sensational Speakers.

More years passed, which brings us to today.  Sensational Speakers helped me in getting my Advanced Communicator Gold.  I can remember giving my first speech for my Advanced Communicator Gold.  It was titled “Go for the Gold”, since it was right after the 2012 Summer Olympics in London.  Helen Dotson evaluated that speech.  A year later, I was able to achieve this.

As I go to the last meeting tonight to reflect on the fond memories that this club was able to provide, I have this to say.  I will never forget the warmth, kindness, encouragement and growth that this club was able to provide for me.  It was people like Maxine, Helen, Jeannie, David, Chris and Wendy that made this club the successful one that it was.  And as the light goes out for this club, I must remember that this is not the end, but the beginning.  The beginning of a new chapter in Toastmasters history.  Will there be another club in Midland?  Another advanced one, perhaps?  I know beyond certainty that there will. And when that happens, I will be among the first of its founding members, to begin a new legacy for a new Midland club.  And I hope all of the former members of this club will join me.

 

Ghost Muse:  Your club is closing?  It can’t!

It’s already been decided.  The website is off-line and there’s nothing else that can be done.

Ghost Muse:  But…You could’ve saved it!

We tried, but were unsuccessful.  How much more time could we buy if we tried to revive it?  We would have another year at least, but then this would happen again.

Ghost Muse:  I checked all the Intangible clubs that I started.  All of them are doing well.

All of them?

Ghost Muse:  So far, they are.  A few are dropping in membership, but they’re still at charter strength.

That’s great.  But for one of my club’s, we have no choice.

Ghost Muse:  Well, that’s too bad.  If only my members could join yours, but that wouldn’t work.

Imaginary members joining real members.  It wouldn’t work.

Remedy:  I just figured out a way to spy on the Muse without even visiting her.

And how would this be done?

Remedy:  With these binoculars.  They allow you to see different dimensions.  This is set for her living room.  Have a look.

*looks into binoculars*

Aw…She’s sitting there watching a cartoon!

Muse:  Go, Rainbow Dash!  We like this part!  Tee hee…

It looks like she’s watching My Little Pony: Friendship is Magic.  Well, that’s a nice invention.  I’ll have to use that another time.

Ghost Muse: You probably want to get ready.  I’ll let you.  But give me those binoculars!  I wanna see!

 

Here.  I’ll see you later!

Now comes the sad part.  The part that is both sad and happy at the same time.  As I said before, tonight is the very last Sensational Speakers meeting.  There will be pizza and snacks if any of you want to join us.  Before that, I will be working a 3-6 shift at the pizza pit, where I will be picking the pizzas up to deliver to the meeting.

Today’s high is going to be 71 degrees and the silver lining is attending tonight’s last Sensational Speakers meeting.

To all of you who have ever had to say their painful goodbyes,  I hope that you all have a fantastic day.

 

Muse:  Whee!  We like it when they fly.  Pinkie Pie’s our favorite!  But what’s with Cheese Sandwich?  We don’t know who he is!  Tee hee…

Whoever had the nerve to call Sunday a weekend is a liar.

For me, my week has not ended yet.  Yesterday, I worked six and a half hours.  Today, I will be working another four.  Monday, I will be working three.  And then, my weekend begins.  Tuesday will be my Saturday.  I then work a three-hour shaker shift on Wednesday.  Following that will be the second day of my weekend – Thursday.

So while you all relax, I’ll be working.  While you are taking a nap, I’ll be on job search engines.  For me, Sunday is a weekday.  Just a normal routine part of the week.

 

Ghost Muse.  Sunday is a weekend.

It is not.

Ghost Muse:  To everyone else, it is.

Well, they can enjoy it.  But I’m not allowed to.  Why do I have to work on this day?  And don’t give me all the people who have to work on this day: Pastors, nurses, people working at a nursing home, the sorry saps that work in restaurants and retail…

Ghost Muse:  Noble or small…each job counts!

My job counts for the high-schooler and college student.  I’m getting too old for this.

Ghost Muse:  But you are there for a reason.

Yes.  I know.  To make a worthless penny and smile while I’m doing it.  Do you think that I’m wallowing in misery?  I’m trying to rise above it!  I’m taking my stand against the negativity that is trying to attack me!  I know that my day has yet to come, and it will come. It will come when its ready.

Ghost Muse:  That’s right.  And you need to be patient until it does…

But when will it?  I keep asking “When God?  When?”  It’s like his timetable will never come within my flawed sight.

Ghost Muse:  Have you ever watched a plant grow?  Or what about a tree?  One of those great big trees?  *eyes tear up* Have you?  Huh?

No.  I haven’t.

Ghost Muse:   And do you know why you haven’t?

It’s because it takes time.  In due time, it will grow.

Ghost Muse:  It due time, it will grow.  You need to keep repeating that until you have enough patience to believe it.

If only I had the patience!  There are several things that I really desire.  One of them is a family.  But to have that, I need a wife.  And to have a wife, I need to get married.  And to get married, I need to fall in love with the woman that God has matched me with.  And to even do that, I need to make the money to put a roof over my head.  Can a lousy job like the pizza pit do that?  No.  It needs to be another one.  One that will hopefully come soon, because I’m losing my mind.  Does a plant take forever to grow?  Does a Redwood tree take forever to fully mature?  My fear is that the thing that I ask for will not come.  So I become anxious, impatient and expectant, because it must happen in a swift and quick fashion, or it might not ever come.  If God can uproot the impatience, the anxiety, the foolish and selfish expectancy that I have been harboring inside of me, if he can do this and allow me to see why i had to wait for such a thing to happen and why it took so long to arrive, I will burst into tears.  I will dissolve into dust and ashes.  My face will be red with tears and my knees will be on the ground in absolute surrender.  What is it that I have waited so long for?  I won’t even have to ask that anymore.  No more questions.  No more doubt.  Just a completely sturdy and unshakable belief.

Ghost Muse:  You are in the middle of a test.  You are doing well.  Just don’t fail it!

*sniff*  I don’t want to fail.  I’ve failed too much to fail again.  Who shares my sentiment?  No one.  I am the only one who is carrying this weight.  Each of us has our own story to tell.  Each story is different.  No one story is the same.  That is why no one can share the experiences that I have encountered.  A family…What sense does that make to someone like me?  I came from one, but can I make one myself?  I am single and penniless.  A dreamer with high hopes, anxiously waiting for the fountain of blessings to explode.

Ghost Muse:  My prayer is that it does, and that you will see the blessings that you already have as well…You have your health.  But not everyone does.

 

Well for now, I’m leaving reality.  Shy or not, I’m seeing what that Muse is up to…

Ghost Muse: Good luck!

*teleports to the Realm of Imagination and enters Muse’s house*

Where are you?  Please don’t hide.

Muse:  *gasps*

*looks around*

I thought I heard something.

*door closes*

There she is.

*opens door*

Where are you?  Please don’t hide.

Muse:  *gasps*

Fine.  If you are going to hide, I’ll bring you out of hiding.  Come out!

*Muse instantaneously appears*

Nice.  Having director’s privileges have their advantages…

Muse:  *gasps*

Don’t be afraid.

*reaches down to Muse, but Muse lunges back*

Don’t move!

Muse:  *gasp*

There.  Motionless as a statue.  Now, let me hold you…

*sits down and holds Muse in lap*

Muse: *lets out a deep gasp*  ahhhhh! *cries*

Not again!  No…you’re not going to have an accident all over me.  That’s it.  No more underpants for you…

*accident disappears and Muse flashes*

There.  All changed.  You shouldn’t have any accidents now.

Muse:  Tee hee…*cries*

Stop crying and say something.

Muse:  *gasp*

I said, say something!

Muse: …I scared!

Well, I’m not.  I won’t hurt you.  You’re the closest thing that I can have to a daughter right now.  You may not be real, but you’re the next best thing…

Muse:  You scary…

*Muse begins to suck her thumb*

I’m not trying to hurt you.  I’m trying to help you.

Muse:  You’re…not hel-ping…

*Muse begins to flash brightly*

Muse: bye-bye…Tee hee…

*Muse becomes invisible and squirms out of my lap*

Well, at least she stuck around for a while.  But only because of the “director’s privileges”…

 

*teleports back to reality*

Ghost Muse:  How was it?

Fine.  I just needed to satisfy the inner yearnings of my heart…

Ghost Muse:  Were you able to do that?

I think so.  I just need real replacements soon…

Ghost Muse:  You will find them.  Don’t worry…

 

Thank you.

Today’s high is going to be 66 degrees and the silver lining will be tonight, when this four-hour shift is out of the way.

To those of you who are enjoying your Sunday, I hope that you all have a fantastic day.

 

Muse:  Those director’s privileges were yummy!  It’s too bad he can’t use them anymore!  *Muse flashes a blinding light*  We love it!  Tee hee…

After yesterday’s crazy day, this really takes the cake.  To correct yesterday’s entry, I actually worked FIVE hours.  And I’ll be working another seven today.  Normally, this wouldn’t be too bad.  But it is, after seeing a movie last night that ends around midnight.  And did I mention that the shift starts at noon?  So much for relaxing.  I guess I can sleep during my time off and then work the next day, right?

I’m sorry everyone.  But I don’t understand what a “weekend” is.  For me, my week has no end.  It never does, when you’re stuck in part-time hell.

But be that as it may, I’m going to try to find happiness where it can be found.  Life is too short to grope about things that can’t be controlled.  At least for now.  Something great awaits me.  It’s just a matter of time.  And that’s something to smile about.

Today’s high is going to be 55 degrees and the silver lining is being able to breathe after tonight’s seven-hour onslaught (I’ll let you know if this is less than seven hours, as business is sometimes unpredictable on Saturdays).

To those of you who are being worn out by your crappy jobs, I hope that you all have a fantastic day.

 

Muse:  Kyle’s still not visiting us.  We don’t want him to.  We scared!  You’re right.  We will hide from him some more.  Tee hee!

And I better put on my sweater for this one!

Now I know what you are thinking.  Why would I wear a sweater on a roller coaster?  If you were to look at the temperature today, you would know why.  And why am I talking about roller coasters?  If I were to tell you that the roller coaster that I am talking about is not a real one, you would probably be more than disappointed.

While I don’t plan on riding on any roller coasters this summer (the truth is I’m broke), today has definitely felt like one.  Pulling out of the station, I am whisked away to my grandparent’s house to mow the lawn.  After that, the first lift hill.  A lunch meeting at a restaurant in town, discussing the fate of a Toastmasters club.  And then, heading down the hill at breakneck speeds, I will be hanging on for dear life, surviving all the twists and turns of my four-hour Friday shift at the pizza pit.  After that, the coaster rounds the last turn, and…the ride’s not over.  There is one more monstrous lift hill to go up.  And just like that, compressed air escapes, sending me flying up and down the super steep hill at breakneck speeds.  Through a two-hour Godzilla movie.  And after that, the ride finally pulls into the station.  I stagger off and collapse into my bed, falling asleep in mere seconds.

I almost forgot to mention something that I learned last night.  While it had nothing to do with roller coasters, it was basically about search engine optimization.  While I haven’t given it much thought,  one person told me to give it a try.  This person went through the trouble of researching the benefits of SEO, and told me how important it would be for my website.  He also gave me some other helpful advice.  Mighty nice of him, huh?

Taking that into consideration, I will definitely do this.  I will open a tumblr account and get my blog seen in more places than one.  That’s one place to grow, right?

 

Hmm…I probably shouldn’t visit that Muse today, considering what happened when I visited her before.  It won’t really accomplish anything.  She will just keep hiding…

Now, I need to get going.  My bus for work should be arriving any minute.

Today’s high is going to be 54 degrees and the silver lining is seeing Godzilla tonight.

To those of you who love seeing blockbusters on their opening day, I hope that you all have a fantastic day.

 

Muse:  Kyle still not around?  Good.  Tee hee!  You are so funny.  Why this funny?  We think that it is!  But we scared…Why are you scared?  You are such a fun friend to be with!  We are glad.  Tee hee….

On those days that you have off, do you ever get the feeling that you’re extremely busy?

For me, I believe that this is happening to me today.  It’s either that, or I’m starting to feel the stress.  I have a Toastmasters meeting to go to tonight.  I will be leaving for that in a little less than three hours.

I am also trying to juggle two different activities tomorrow.  If dad can get the lawnmower working, I will be mowing my grandparents lawn tomorrow.  Coincidentally, this is the same day that I have agreed to meet some people in town to discuss the future of a struggling Toastmasters club.  Depending on whether or not I cut the lawn, that is where I will have that person meet me – whether that’s home or my grandparents.  From there, I will be dropped off at home for the bus to take me to work.  Following work, I will be watching Godzilla with my brother. I will then be collapsing on my bed, finally being able to exhale after holding my breath all day.

As far as this meeting goes….

 

Ghost Muse:  Kyle!

What?  I’m busy!

Ghost Muse:  I’m sorry that you are, but can you spare a few minutes?

I can spare a few…wait a minute!  What are you doing here?

Ghost Muse:  Enjoying my freedom.  Kyle…it was terrible!  I was trapped inside that shy Muse!  She wouldn’t let me go!

Let me guess.  You lacked the confidence to escape.

Ghost Muse:  Yes!  I wanted to escape but I couldn’t!

And let me guess again.  The Dark Muse had a part to play in your escape, right?

Ghost Muse:  Right again!  At the moment she entered, she had full control over the Muse.  I used that opportunity to escape while I still could!

How are you doing?  It must have been terrible being trapped inside that shy Muse…

Ghost Muse:  *sob* I hated it!  Every ounce of confidence that I could muster was drained from me!  I wanted to move but I couldn’t…All I could do was cry…

I hope that she hasn’t infected you in any way.  How do you feel right now?

Ghost Muse:  I feel fine!  I feel more confident than I have ever been in days!

Good.  You’re free now.  But that Dark Muse…

Ghost Muse:  Her control over the shy Muse won’t last very long.  In fact, I strongly think that the shy Muse has already drained every ounce of confidence she has.

Wonderful.  A shy Muse was hard enough.  But a shy Dark Muse?  That’s like a shy child!

Ghost Muse:  Actually, a shy five-year old…

That’s still considered a child.  I wonder how she’s faring?

Ghost Muse:  Kyle, I wouldn’t go and see her.  You’ll lose your confidence!

No I won’t.  My confidence is unshakable.  Remedy gave me a fountain of confidence that will never run dry.

Ghost Muse:  Okay.  I will get some unshakable confidence from Remedy and go with you.

You won’t.  To be safe, I would stay away from her.  I will go alone.

Ghost Muse:  I think I will stay away from her.  After being trapped inside her, I think I’m going to change my mind…

Thank you.  You stay here.  I will see how she’s doing.

Ghost Muse:  Good luck!

Thank you.  Time to see how she’s doing…

*teleports inside the Realm of Imagination and enters Muse’s house*

Cute.  Toys are all over the place and scattered around the room.  I guess she isn’t that shy when no one’s around.

*a faint gasp is heard*

What was that?

*a quick set of footsteps is heard, and then the sound of the door slamming*

It’s her!

*runs down the hallway to the bedroom and opens door*

Hello?

Muse:  *gasp*

Where are you?  There you are!  Right on the bed…

Muse:  *gasp*  *Muse hides underneath the covers*  Tee hee…

Your feet are sticking out!

*grabs Muse’s feet, which squirm loose when Muse crawls deeper underneath the covers*

Come on. I won’t hurt you…

*pulls off covers, revealing the Muse*

Muse:  *lets out a deep gasp and looks away*

Oh great…your pajamas and bedding are soaked.  You’re starting to make a mess…

Muse:  *gasps*  Tee hee…  *Muse gets up and runs out of the room*

Come back!

*runs after Muse, and finds her sitting in the corner of the hallway, sucking her thumb*

Come on.  I won’t hurt you…

*Muse crosses her legs, lowers her head and covers her face with her hands*

She thinks that I can’t see her.  Hello!  I’m still here, but I won’t hurt you!  I promise!

*Muse uses her Intangible magic to make herself invisible*

Great.  Now I can’t see her…

Muse:  …Tee hee…

*a bright flash fills the entire room*

Man…My confidence…It’s a good thing that I still have plenty…

*gets teleported outside the Realm of Imagination*

Well, that didn’t accomplish anything.

Ghost Muse:  So, what happened?

She sent me back here.

Ghost Muse:  Did she say anything?

Not a word.  As a child, she is extremely shy.  Even more shy than she was as an adult…

Ghost Muse:  What about “tee hee”?

That’s about all she said.  Besides that, she didn’t say a word.  All she wanted to do was hide from me…

Ghost Muse:  We have to do something!  For once, I actually feel sorry for that Dark Muse…

I can’t believe that I just heard you say that.

Ghost Muse:  Who can blame her?  She had no idea what she was getting into…

Should we try to get her out?

Ghost Muse:  We should.  I’ll talk to Remedy about it.  I’m sorry that I took more than a few minutes.  Bye!

 

It’s okay.  I now must get going.  Time is of the essence.

Today’s high is going to be 53 degrees and the silver lining is attending tonight’s Toastmasters meeting.

To those of you who have evening activities, I hope that you all have a fantastic day.

 

Muse:  Kyle scary…But he gone now…relax…Tee hee!  You talk funny.  But good friend for me.  If he visits us again, we will hide.  He will never find us.  Tee hee….

So yes.  If you have read yesterday’s entry, today is pretty much a repeat of yesterday.

Today, I will be working two more hours at the pizza pit.  After that, I will be coming home.  My friend may be coming over later, and my brother won’t be around until later.  If my friend does come over, I am ready to use all of the right strategies to hopefully beat him in Monopoly.

The job search continues.  I didn’t have much luck with it yesterday.  But like the saying goes “you don’t always catch fish”.  But I prefer the saying “Give a man a fish and he’ll eat for a day.  Teach a man to fish and he’ll eat for life.”

Yesterday, I managed to update my Writing Report Card.  The details to that will be posted in a future entry, so stay tuned for that.  There are a lot of things in that report card that involved characterization, so that should be pretty good.

I also managed to read more of Mitch Albom’s The First Phone Call from Heaven.  So far, it’s pretty good.  All of the locations are based in Michigan, so it makes it all the more fun to read.

And I actually did it.  I actually finished writing another chapter for The Tale of Zachary Willowbrook: The School Years.  That was chapter eight.  I should be starting on chapter nine today.

Now I’ll….Hmm.  She has not answered.  She must really be upset.

 

Dark Muse:  I’m back!  Tee hee!

Oh.  It’s you again.

Dark Muse:  So where is my home?  I feel so homesick!  Tee hee….

The Muse?  She’s…

Dark Muse:  Inside your head?  Thanks!  That’s a nice shortcut to get to that realm.  Tee hee!

Wait!  I don’t think you want to…

*Dark Muse enters my head*

 

*sigh*  It’s too late.  She’ll learn the hard way.

Anyway, it’s time to get ready for my next shift.

Today’s high is going to be 59 degrees and the silver lining is being able to make more progress on my story and the possibility of my friend coming over.

To those of you who like getting things accomplished, I hope that you all have a fantastic day.

 

Muse:  *sigh*  I’m tired of being microscopic.  Time to grow to my normal size…

*Muse grows until her head scrunches against the ceiling*

Muse:  No!  That’s too big!

*Muse shrinks down to half her normal size*

Muse:  Close enough…No.  It’s not! I must try again!

*Muse grows double her size, finally reaching her normal size*

Muse:  There.  Wish I knew how to grow and shrink properly…Even more than that, I wish that I could talk to Kyle…

Dark Muse:  I’m home!  Tee hee!

*Dark Muse quickly enters Muse*

Muse:  Wait!  Who was that?  Who just entered me…hee hee!  I’m home!

*Muse starts to change the decorations in the room*

Muse:  Tee hee!  I’m already starting to feel like home!  This body is…what’s happening?  I, um…tee hee…

*Muse sits down and begins sucking her thumb*

That is correct.  The shift that I’ll be working at the pizza pit will only be two hours long.  It is a shaker shift, where I will be shaking the sign for the whole time.

After that, I will be doing some job searching at home.  The job search engines have betrayed me several times.  Here’s to hoping that this will not be repeated today.  If I manage to get this done, the writing will continue.

Now you are all probably wondering how I managed to get to work being only three thousandths of an inch tall.  Fortunately, Remedy was able to find me and he restored me to my normal size.

And of course, my Muse just sent me a text again.

Muse:  Kyle, I need you to come over right now.

Kyle:  This again?  Already, this is getting old.

Muse:  What are you talking about?

Kyle:  You just said that you wanted me to come over.

Muse:  That?  I sent that last night.  Leave me alone.

Kyle:  So you don’t want me to come over?

Muse:  Please!  Leave me be!

Kyle:  Very well.  I will!

Kyle:  Hello?

Kyle: Are you still there?

 

I’m guessing that she turned her phone off again.  It’s time that I get ready for that shift.

Today’s high is going to be 73 degrees and the silver lining is have a really short shift to work.

To those of you who have a light workload, I hope that you all have a fantastic day.

 

Muse:  *sigh*  My dream is to talk to Kyle face to face and not be afraid.  Wait!  Didn’t I just have that dream last night?  I wish that dream could come true!  *sigh*

With Mother’s Day now over, it’s back to the grind.  The search for work continues.  And, if there’s time, more writing.

Even after those three movie reviews that I have written, I have noticed a backlog of movies starting to form.  In due time, I will want to have written movie reviews for the following movies:

– Heaven is for Real

– Rio 2

– The Amazing Spider Man 2

And as of this Friday, Godzilla will be added to the list.

Now, without further ado, I need to get started with everything before my bus picks me up.  I most certainly need to apply for something before the public transit whisks me away to work.  A text?  Again? I don’t have time for this.

 

Muse: Kyle?  Can you come to my house?  Please?

Kyle:  This again?  You’re just going to tell me to go away after I arrive.  I’m calling it.

Muse:  I don’t care.  I hate being shy.  I have to do something!

Kyle:  And that something is being afraid when I show up?  That’s accomplishing something.  Isn’t it?

Muse:  So, are you going to come?

Well, I really need to get going with my day.  If I tell her no, I’ll make her upset again.

Muse:  Well?

What do I tell her?  If I say yes, she will just get afraid when I visit her.  It will not work either way.

Muse:  You’re taking too long to answer.  Fine!  You’re coming.  Now!

Kyle:  I am, huh?

Muse:  I said, NOW!!!

*gets transported to Muse’s house in the Realm of Imagination*

Muse:  Oh no!  He’ll be here any second!  What do I do?  Where is it?  I had that confidence before….

*appears in Muse’s room*

Muse:  Eeeek!  G-go away!

See?  I told you.  You leeched just enough confidence from me that you want me to visit.  And then, when I visit, that confidence is drained fast by that black hole of yours.

Muse:  N-n-not again!  I’m shrinking!

*Muse shrinks to a quarter of an inch tall*

Muse:  There.  Now he won’t see me….

Did it happen again?

Muse:  What does it matter?  I can’t do anything right!  I try to get you to visit and then I don’t even know what to say when you do!.  Just….leave!

It’s your confidence vacuum.  It sucks up every bit of confidence in sight.

Muse:  Shut up!  You’re just making that up because you don’t like me.

I never said that.

Muse:  Yes you did!  You hate me!  Everyone hates me!

*a bright aura surrounds the Muse and engulfs the entire house in a bright light*

Whoa….I felt that!

Muse:  Felt what?

You just did it.  You flashed and you drained every bit of confidence in this entire room.  Fortunately, I still have plenty.

Muse:  You’re lying! *sob*  I don’t believe you!

Well, believe me or not, it’s happening, whether you’re aware of it or not.

Muse:  No it ISN’T!!!!

*Muse flashes again and aura begins covering the area surrounding the Muse’s house*

Muse:  Come closer.

*sigh* What will this accomplish?

*approaches Muse*

Muse:  Y-you’re too big!

Whoa!  W-what’s happening to me?

*shrinks down to one one-hundredth of the Muse’s size*

Muse:  EEEEK!   Even at your tiny size, I am still afraid of you!

Um….Can you please change your clothes?

Muse:  Shut up!   Aaah! No…..

Now you REALLY need to change your clothes!

Muse:  J-j-just go away!

Well, you brought me here.

Muse:  Well, I order you to leave, now!

I wish I could help you….

Muse:  I said LEAVE!!!!

*gets teleported back to reality*

Time to get ready for work, and….oh no!  Everything is gigantic!  The carpet looks like a vast jungle of fuzz!  She forgot to make my size normal again!  I hope that I find a way to get my size restored before work.

Today’s high is going to be 72 degrees and the silver lining is being able to continue with the job search.

To those of you in the midst of the daily grind, I hope that you all have a fantastic day.

 

Muse:  Oh.  I won’t let him visit me again.  I feel like hiding forever.  I think I will….

*Muse shrinks down to microscopic size and makes herself invisible*

Muse:  There.  Now he’ll never find me.  Ever!

*Muse casts clean spell on herself and hugs a strand of fur on her stuffed bunny, while weeping incessantly*