Once again, it’s the most wonderful time of the year.  This is, without a doubt, my most favorite holiday.  Christmas morning.  Now it may be early, but I’m up and ready to open my presents.  My parents may still be sleeping, but I’m excited.  If it’s any part of me that has never grown up, it’s the part of me that acts four on Christmas morning.

Muse:  For me, that just happened.  I am so excited!  Tee hee!

Twin Muse:  So am I!  Tee hee!

But for Christmas, how excited are you two?

Muse:  I’m very excited.  Tee hee!  Part of me wants to squeal with excitement, but I will spare you that since I don’t want to wake up your parents.  I’ll do it quietly instead.  *whispering*  Yaaaay!!!!

Twin Muse:  Oh come on, twinnie!  Everyone should be awake by now!  If you want to squeal with excitement, do it!  I know I’m excited!  YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY!!!!!!

I can see that one part of you hasn’t grown up either.

Muse:  Who EVER grows up on Christmas morning?  When I wake up on this day, I feel like I’m five again.  Adulthood can wait for one day, can’t it?

Twin Muse:  You feel like you’re five?  Come on, sis!  We’re Intangible!  We can change our ages to whatever we want!  Besides, I literally can’t adult today…*Twin Muse regresses to a five-year-old girl*  Yay!  It’s Christmas!  When are we gonna open up all the presents?

Muse:  *sigh*  If you want to be five, be five.  I am not changing my age…

Twin Muse:  Suit yourself!  *Twin Muse runs in a circle and squeals with excitement*  It’s Christmas!  It’s Christmas!  It’s Christmas!  Yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay!!!!

As I was saying.  Adulthood can wait.  And I see that you’re cozy with your footie pajamas…

Muse:  I am, and I’m not taking them off.  They feel comfortable and they keep me warm.  You’ve worn them before so you should know, right?

Twin Muse:  I’m in mine, too!  They’re my Frozen footed jammies!  They’re my FAVORITE!

Right.  Getting back to what you said.  Adulthood can wait on Christmas.  Whatever memories I have had when I was younger, they all return on this day.  Now this may differ for some people.  But for most, they can feel some aspect of their childhood calling back…

Muse:  Yes.  And some people fight it and repress it.  They try to hide it, but this is unhealthy.  Everyone.  If you feel excited on this day, don’t hesitate to let it out.  Listen to your memories and set them free.  Remember your youth, and how fun Christmas was for you.  Your memories only want to remind you of this.  Listen to them and recapture the moment.  Take a step back in time.  Christmas only comes once a year!  Tee hee!

Twin Muse:  Or, if you can, change your age back to five!  It’s so much fun!  I can remember everything from kindergarten!

Muse:  Um, sis?  Tangible humans cannot change their ages.  They can only age one second at a time, but can never age in reverse.

Twin Muse:  They’re no fun!  They should learn to do this!  Now when can we open presents?  I wanna open presents!!!!

Muse:  They can’t learn it!  They are not Intangibles!  We are!  Now stop being silly and turn back to your adult age.

Twin Muse:  No!  It’s Christmas so I don’t have to be a grown-up!

Girls!  Let’s get back on track.  I totally agree with letting your childhood run free on this day.  But remember.  There is another side of Christmas.  A side that some people don’t pay attention to.  Christmas is not about presents and Santa Claus.  It’s about the birth of Jesus Christ.

Muse:  Yes.  I also look at the Advent Season when I celebrate this time of year.  We need to know why we give these gifts.

Twin Muse:  I like the story that mommy used to tell us about baby Jesus…

Muse:  Yes.  it’s a great story, isn’t it?

It is.  And we do need to know why we give these gifts.  What can we give to God what he doesn’t already have?  All we can give to him is ourselves.  And while we can’t give anything else to him, we give gifts to others to show our love and appreciation for them.

Muse:  I also think of the Charlie Brown Christmas Special.  It’s the only special where we hear the true meaning of Christmas.

Twin Muse:  Can we watch that?  I wanna watch Charlie Brown Christmas!

Maybe we can watch that later, okay?  And Yes.  We do hear the true meaning of Christmas.  Linus quotes the Christmas story found in Luke.  Matthew refers to the Wise Men delivering gifts to the baby Jesus.

Muse:  What were these gifts for, anyway?  I understand the symbolic meaning behind them.  I believe they were used to pay for the trip to Egypt.

It probably was, for they had to flee from Herod, since he issued orders to kill every firstborn male baby.  Jesus is the reason for the season.  He was born to be the perfect sacrifice.  To bear the sins of humanity so that we may live.

Muse:  It must have been a heavy burden to bear all that.

It was.  Today is indeed a joyful day.

Muse:  Should we make him a birthday cake?  I don’t know what frosting he would like!

Twin Muse:  Maybe we should ask Jesus what frosting he wants?  Let’s ask him!

I think he would be happy with any frosting.

Anyway, I want to wish everyone who is reading this Merry Christmas.  Whether you celebrate one side, both, or don’t celebrate Christmas at all, understand that this is a very special day.  Most importantly because Jesus was born on this day, both for you and for me.  And from this day, many traditions have developed.  The most popular one being the exchange of gifts.

The high today is going to be ?? degrees and the silver lining is celebrating the birth of Christ and the opening of presents.  My parents are still not up.  But when they are, it’s present opening time!

To all of you who celebrate Christmas, I hope that you all have a fantastic day.

Muse:  Merry Christmas, Kyle!  My company just arrived so I’ll see you later!  Tee hee…

Twin Muse:  And I’m gonna open my presents!  Yay!

Muse:  *sigh*

Twin Muse:  C’mon sis!  I see it…That look…You really don’t want to be an adult today, do you?

Muse: *sigh*  Urghhh…I can’t…I can’t adult…today…

*Muse regresses to a five-year-old girl*

Muse:  Just for today, sis.  I’m gonna open all my presents!!!!

Twin Muse:  I’m gonna open mine FIRST!

Muse:  No you won’t!  I’m opening mine first!

*both Muse and Twin Muse teleport in a beam of light and run into the living room*

If Tom Hanks was a train conductor, this is what he would be shouting outside your house on Christmas Eve.

Now what would Tom Hanks be doing here?  Your train has arrived.  You stopped believing in Santa Claus so you are now greeted by a magical train.  A train bound for the North Pole.  Make your decision quick.  The train conductor is very strict about being on time and he is not going to wait for you another minute.

If your decision was yes, then welcome aboard.  You are on The Polar Express.  A special service offered to help kids who have any lingering doubts about the man in red.  The ride is free, and every kid will meet Santa before he takes off to deliver his gifts around the world.

Tonight, I will be seeing this movie.  If I have said it before, I will say it again.  This movie gets better and better every time you see it.  It’s magical and nostalgic.  Can you remember your childhood memories about Christmas?  This movie will bring them all back, because you, the viewer, are riding that train with them.

Muse:  So you’re seeing the Polar Express?  I LOVE that movie!  Rather than seeing it alone, I think I’ll join you.

Twin Muse:  So will I!  It’s going to be fun!

Please do.  Just remember, miss.  The conductor does not like to wait.  We want to start the movie ON TIME and end ON TIME!  We have a tight schedule to keep tonight…

Muse:  Okay, Tom Hanks.

Twin Muse:  So strict!  We WILL be on time…

Besides that, my brother works at the Post Office.  After he gets home, and we finish having Christmas with my sister, brother in law, niece, and uncle in law with my family, I’ll watch the movie.

The high today is going to be 33 degrees and the silver lining will be watching The Polar Express tonight.

To those of you who love reliving your childhood memories through Christmas Movies, I hope that you all have a fantastic day.

Muse:  To gear up for the movie tonight, I’m brewing up a a large pot of HOT CHOCOLATE!  Hot hot!  Oh, we got it!  I love that movie!

Twin Muse:  Hot Chocolate!  I LOVE that song!  Tee hee!

Since I want to make the most out of this day, I’ll cut to the chase.

I’ll be taking it easy at home, going through my devotionals, working out, watching a Christmas movie, and playing more of my game.  In the evening, I will watch The Nativity Story with my brother.

 

Muse:  That is a good movie.  I plan on watching it myself…

Twin Muse:  Yes!  We’ll be watching it together!

I will now get ready.

Today’s high is going to be 26 degrees and the silver lining is watching The Nativity Story with Ryan.

To those of you who look forward to Christmas, I hope that you all have a fantastic day.

 

Muse: Oh yeah!  There’s one more gift that I forgot to wrap!  Better finish wrapping it now…

Twin Muse:  What’s taking you so long, twinnie?  I’m done wrapping all my gifts!

What’s on the schedule today?  After work, my brother and I will be visiting my grandma, since I want to keep her company.

Muse:  That’s nice of you!

I know.  I really want to get out and keep connecting with others.  These are the people that I love and I want to keep showing this more and more.

Muse:  That’s good.  Also connect with your other friend as well!

That’s the plan.  One thing at a time and one step at a time.

I’ll let you all know how it turns out.

Today’s high is going to be 88 degrees and the silver lining is being able to have dinner with my grandma.

To those of you who like having dinner with your friends and loved ones, I hope that you all have a fantastic day.

 

Muse:  Well, it’s the weekend. I think that I’ll join him for dinner…

Midnight Muse:  Tag!  You’re it!

*Midnight Muse enters Muse*

Muse:  Nah.  Don’t think I’ll join him.  I have a different plan.  Hee hee hee!  Ha ha ha!

Okay, not really.  I’ll explain shortly

What anniversary are we talking about? My parent’s 43rd wedding anniversary.

Having recently gotten home from work, I wished them a happy anniversary.  For this year, they decided to go and have dinner somewhere, and they took their motorcycle out.  I will also be watching a movie.  What movie?  The latest God’s Not Dead movie.  Gotta love Pure Flix!

Muse:  Yeah.  It’s pretty good!

I know.  The movies have been very good.  It’s nice to relax to a movie at the end of the day.

Muse:  It’s looks like you’re doing better.  Do you think that you’ll be out of this soon?

Most certainly.  It’s been a trial, but one that I’ll surely be able to overcome.  And when that day comes, I will explain everything.  For now, just know that I am making progress.

Muse:  I’m so glad you are.  I have all my homework done for the summer and I’m ready for my senior year.  This summer has been too short…

I know.  With this trial, I feel like a lot of the days have been flying by.  I know that this is not a vacuum.

Muse:  It’s not.  Glad you’re able to leave your island.  You’ll get there…

Anyway, I’m going to cook some Hungry Mans and enjoy a chocolate chip cookie from Aviator Cookie Company.  They have good cookies if you’re ever in Midland.  Check them out by clicking here!  That’s pretty much this day in a nutshell.  Happy anniversary mom and dad!

Today’s high is going to be 88 degrees and the silver lining is being able to enjoy this evening and celebrate mom and dad’s anniversary.

To those of you who like to celebrate milestones with you family, I hope that you all have a fantastic day.

 

Muse:  I’m SO glad he’s making progress.  As for Midnight Muse, I hope that she doesn’t show up.  She’s bad news…

 

Meanwhile…

Midnight Mues:  Urrgh!  There!  I’m free!  It’s going to take more than that to keep me trapped.  A coma in a banished dimension?  Ha.  You’re gonna have to do better than that, Kyle.  Time for a new game.  I’m gonna play tag.  And you, sister, are IT!  Hee hee hee!  Ha ha ha!

Once again, the day is here again. I’m another year older. Another year wiser. Getting on the subject of birthdays, I really love them. Most of us love celebrating the day of our birth. This is usually done with presents, a special dinner and the cake and ice cream, with is the staple for most birthday parties.

Birthdays are also the time that you get numerous people coming out of the woodwork. If you have a facebook, you will find a number of people that you normally never talk to wishing you happy birthday. I actually don’t have a problem with this, since everyone who does this are people that I do know. Some, however, are people that I haven’t talked to in years. Oh facebook and your birthday stalkers. You never cease to amaze me…

Muse: Happy birthday, Kyle!

For me? Thank you!

Muse: I am also taking a day off from being a teen, so you won’t have to worry about that.

That’s nice to hear. I wouldn’t want you to be preoccupied on my birthday!

Muse: Actually, I have to go to the mall right now. I’ll be right back.

Really? Not on my birthday!

Muse: Just kidding! I will not turn into a teen. I promise.

I can remember how last year’s birthday was. You were a time traveler and you took the day off so that you could spend it with me. The year before that, you were a tween and you took the day off so that you could spend it with me. The year before that, you were a mermaid and you took the day off so that you could spend it with me. The year before that, you were a Jedi and you took the day off so that you could spend it with me. The year before that, you were were a baby and I wished for you to be an adult for a day. And the year before that, you were brought from the past with Gabrielle so that I could celebrate my birthday with you. And the year before that, you were just getting over your shy tics. And the year before that, you were the Dark Muse…

Muse: You mean the Bad Idea, right? For just that one day, I was normal. After that, the Bad Idea took over again. It was terrible.

What about being a teen? I haven’t seen Midnight Muse lately. She won’t interfere, will she?

Muse: She won’t. There’s nothing that you need to worry about. So, what do you want to do, birthday boy?

Whatever I want. After all, it is my birthday, right? Well, I do have to work, first. Besides that, everything else is fair game.

Muse: Right. It took me quite a while to make that cake, so please eat all of it.

Don’t worry. I will, just for you.

Muse: Don’t I get a piece?

We’ll both eat it. We’ll eat it together…

Muse: What about your brother?

All three of us. We will all eat it together.

Muse: Sounds good to me!

You…look beautiful. Even more so than other days.

Muse: It’s for you. I appreciate your level of creativity. It keeps me healthy. The new ideas that are born. The ideas that eventually ripen into the most delicious of food. There is never a shortage. You always provide for me, and I’m thankful for it. You may be going through a lot, but patient. I know that you’ll get through this…

Well, if I leave you starved, it doesn’t help me at all. I don’t mind going the extra mile to keep you healthy.

Muse: Your food has given me a unique vitality. One that almost blurs the lines of reality and imagination. I long to be a person like you, but alas…There is a wall of separation between us.

Deja vu much?

Muse: I know. I said that last year, and it’s still something that I long for. When you find your wife, you will find me. The REAL me.

Muse: Like last year, I will ask again. What do you want to do on your birthday? Well, after work, of course…

I just want to have a nice dinner with my family. A nice dinner with some cake and ice cream. Before that, I’ll be working at East End. Later on, I’ll head home.

Muse: As you wish. It’s your day, so I won’t sway any of your decisions.

Good. I’m sure that you won’t be swayed by this…

*gives Muse a kiss on the lips*

Muse: Hey. I was just about to kiss you! My turn!

*Muse gives me a big kiss*

That was really good. There’s plenty more where that came from later.

Muse: Not too later. I want to be back by midnight. I don’t want to spoil my beauty rest…

Oh yeah. That’s right. Well, I better enjoy my time with you while it lasts…

Muse: I’ll enjoy my time with you as well. Anyway, I’ll let you get ready. Happy 37th Birthday, Kyle!

*Muse gives me another kiss and vanishes back into my head*

Isn’t she amazing? I love her immensely and I hope to meet her true identity some day…

From that exchange, it looks like my Muse already gave me her gift, and I shared it with her. I will also eat all of that cake with her and my brother. Man, am I going to feel that in the morning.

For today, I will be working and enjoying my birthday early in the day. After that, I will have a nice dinner with my brother, parents, my sister, niece, and grandma at Lucky’s tonight. After that, we will go to grandma’s for cake and ice cream. Today’s high is going to be 88. It’s supposed to be sunny, so that will be nice. The silver lining today is pretty obvious. It is my birthday and my brother and I will be enjoying it.

To all of you who love birthdays like I do, I hope that you all have a fantastic day.

Happy 37th birthday, Kyle! I hope that yours is a really good one…

Yup. It’s another day completed and I feel optimistic.

What are my plans for this blog? Stay tuned. I haven’t forgotten about all of you

Today’s high is going to be 90 degrees and the silver lining is already being through the first day of the week.

To those of you who unwinding after work on this Monday, I hope that you all have a fantastic day.

 

Muse: Yeah. This Monday is finally over! Time to read a nice book…

After driving for two and a half hours, refueling my car and unpacking at my place, I think I’m going to take it easy for the remainder of the day.  That’s about it for this one.

Today’s high is going to be 88 degrees and the silver lining is being able to unwind back at my place.

To those of you who like returning home after a fun weekend, I hope that you all have a fantastic day.

 

Muse:  I glad that you really enjoyed your weekend!  I’m glad it was nice and sunny.  It looks like you’re starting to come around.  Let’s talk some more, okay?

Whoa.  Is he really doing it?  Is Kyle ACTUALLY typing a new entry for once?

Yes I am.  While I won’t reveal much right now, I am still going through some things.

 

Muse:  I’ll say!

Yes.  It’s been a little while and I am still going through some things.

Muse:  Kyle, I really miss you.  I know that you have been going through a lot.  I have been praying every day that you have been absent from this blog.  I always have it in my mind “When is he going to come back?”  What you are going through, I can say, is a whole lot.  Just know and remember this.  God’s got this.  He’s helping you through this.  Don’t forget!

I have not.  For a trial of this magnitude, it requires great patience on my part.

Muse:  I have been praying for patience.

I know.  And I thank you for that.

Muse:  Are you going to get your creative spark going again?  It’s only a matter of time, isn’t it?

I hope.  It’s all up to God’s timing.

Muse:  You are back at your office again.  Isn’t that great?

Yes it is.

Muse:  Don’t sound too excited!

It’s all the excitement I can muster right now.  Don’t you think I would like to sound 100% excited?

Muse:  That was more like 10% excited just now.  I know Kyle.  I know that you do.  Just know that we’re all pulling for you.

I know that you all are.  And in writing this one today, I don’t want to wait until I’m 100%. I want to get back to my creative writing prowess.  Don’t know when that will happen, but I want to get something out.  Anything.  Even if it’s not a work of art. I was given a gift of writing.  I don’t want to lose it.

Muse:  You still have it.  You just haven’t used it in a while.  And with what you have been going through, I’m sure that it has been a battle.

Yes.  Certainly one that I don’t want to lose.

Muse:  You won’t.  Now can we discuss the title?

Yes.  After work today, I went and got an oil change.  Tonight’s dinner plans include a long overdue trip to Panda Express, since there is a birthday card from last year to use.

Muse:  Sounds like a plan.  I hope you don’t mind if I join you.  I haven’t done anything with you in a while.  I know what you’re going through and you’re going to need your friends to help you out of this.  You will get there.  Just hold on.

You can join me.  It’s going to be my brother and I.  There is definitely room for a third person.

Muse:  Then it’s settled.  We leave when your brother is ready?

Yup.  That’s the plan.  (I can’t believe I am finally getting another one of these done.  The spark is there but it needs a fire to thrive.  Hope that I can keep this going once again…)

Muse:  (Don’t worry.  You will!)

So here’s a brief recap.  I worked today and had an oil change.  I will be having dinner with my brother at Panda Express.  My Muse will be tagging along.  That’s pretty much this day in a nutshell.

Today’s high is going to be 75 degrees and the silver lining is having a nice inexpensive dinner with my brother.

To those of you who like eating Chinese fast food, I hope that you all have a fantastic day.

 

Muse:  Congratulations on making another entry!  Yes, I know what you are going through but keep it going!  Maybe you will be able to get out of what you’re going through and really make some progress on these!  I hope that your brother ready soon!  My stomach is starting to growl and I’m feeling a little hangry…

 

While I certainly wasn’t present on your birthday a year ago, I am most certainly present with you now.

Mom is at home and we’ll be able to celebrate her birthday as a family.  She is enjoying her new gift:  A Garmin Vivo Smart 4 Smart Activity Tracker.  I wished her a happy birthday and she has yet to open her card from my brother and I.  I don’t know if she’ll have cake, but I know that there will be ice cream.

Today, I will be going over to grandma’s with mom, dad, and my brother to join my sister, my brother-in-law, my niece, and grandma for a birthday dinner of pulled pork sandwiches.  After that, we will be going home.

So, you’re all probably wondering what has happened to me.  What has happened to Kyle and has he fallen off the face of the earth?  To answer the first question, I will get to that.  There has been a lot of personal things in my life that I have had to sort through.  I will certainly explain it in future posts.  And to answer the second question, no.  I did not fall off the face of the earth.

Another thing that you’re probably going to be confused about is the numbering of the entries.  Why am I skipping 255 entries? (Technically, it’s 256 since I left out an entry in December.)

Muse:  I was wondering that too.  Are you ever going to get back to that?  There are so many missed entries!

I know.  And wow, you’re very small.  Almost the size of an atom!  Fortunately, I can see you with my Creator’s Privileges…

Muse:  I know you have other reasons as to why you haven’t updated.  Just hang in there and know just one thing.  You ARE going to get through this…

I know.  It’s a process that I’m still working on.  So, what’s the plan to restore the Walker Estate and Me & My Muse?  The story arcs will be worked on and written and be separated by post numbers.  It’s a gradual process but it’s all going to happen eventually.

Muse:  Is there going to be a Tower of Muses?  The next one is in a week!

Not necessarily.  The priority is to restore this blog.  The short and choppy posts will be replaced by longer ones.  I may keep the older ones and use post the new ones as “B” entries.  That’s the plan moving forward.  Consider this a trial entry as I am trying to get things back on track.

Today’s high is going to be 88 degrees and the silver lining is it being my mom’s 62nd birthday.

To those of you who like celebrating special birthday milestones, I hope that you all have a fantastic day.

Muse: It’s your mom’s 62nd birthday today? Tell her that I said happy birthday, okay?

Muse: Also, he still is not aware of the truth.  I replaced his Muse at birth to save my twinnie!  I hope that we can get her back soon somehow…

How does one get a good crop?  By cultivating the soil.   Good soil produces a good crop, so I need to make sure that I get a good crop with the soil that I have.  It’s time to cultivate…

It’s another day to work as usual…

Only thing I can do at this point…

When you’re low on fuel, you need to fill up…

With my friend gone now, it’s time to get ready for tomorrow.

Today’s high is going to be 33 degrees and the silver lining is being able to spend some time with my friend.

To those of you who like spending time with your friends, I hope that you all have a fantastic day.

 

Muse:  My friend left too!  We had a whole lot of fun!

To cut a long story short, my friend Jeff is over here right now.  I will now call it a day.

Today’s high is going to be 33 degrees and the silver lining is Jeff being over today.

To those of you who like having friends over for the weekend, I hope that you all have a fantastic day.

 

Muse:  I’m glad you’re enjoying your time with him!  Enjoy it while it lasts!  That reminds me, I still have some company that’s over to tend to…